My Fortress of Solitude

I miss you so much. I don't know what happened, why suddenly you gone cold. Are you mad at me again? What did I do? The idea of being with you always made me happy ... until I realized you were perfect for me...now it just makes me scared. You mean so much to me, that I'm scared to close my eyes and open them and see that you're not there. And I'm scared to leave them open to see you leaving me. I don't know why I'm so afraid to lose you when you aren't even mine. I'm afraid because you're the single-most, important being to ever grace my existence. I love you so much.. :(